Thursday, September 10, 2009
crazy hecticness = awesomeness
Life has settled down into a nice, hectic routine. I like hectic routines. They give me something interesting to do. I enjoy running frantically from one spot to the next. This is much more calming then, say, having two jobs during the summer and trying desperately to keep them from over lapping, and then ending up with days filled with _____. What was that you say? oh. I meant to put nothing there. And nothing is there. heh.
As it is, I'm running like a chicken with my head cut off. Also, good news, my classes are fantastic!
Even better news is that God is gracious. I have realized again, and with some fantastic finality, that I really am not worried about who God has in store for me. It's amazing. When I was younger, I used to think it would be great to get married and have kids, and the idea of writing letters to my husband while I was younger and waiting for him seemed so romantic, but the problem of all this was that my letters were directed towards anyone that I had a large crush on at the moment. I feel like, if I wanted to, I could sit down and write a letter to my future husband without imagining a current crush reading it. I've realized that my feelings towards a crush now do not get in the way. That's huge. And it's amazing. I'm sure you remember how worried I was that things would change and that I would lose sight of who my betrothed is, but God has been amazing and helped me keep in sight that anyone, anyone, he brings into my life will merely be my help-meet on the long road to God's throne room.
I am so looking forward to anything that God throws in my lap, because I know that ultimately, He's the one who's going to be taking care of it for me.
Oh, and I just lost the game.